So I have managed to go for a walk every two days, which is an improvement on going out at intervals of weeks. And in fact the other day I actually went out at about eight o'clock, but that was only so I could see the owl that has been hanging around the house for the last few weeks and I actually managed to see it!
But apart from that I have spentquite a lot of time recently getting stressed out with benefits and trying to sort everything out, and I just seem to be repeating the same information at them and they never seem to be able to keep this information and apply it to me the next time they contact me. But that is life and I suppose it happens to everyone but it is driving me mad and really making me quite anxious at times.
So really at the moment I am trying to keep to my walking every second day, and just trying to slowly re-build my interest/enthusiasm about things, and hopefully that will return soon. Otherwise I don't see me ever managing to complete the OU degree any time soon.

Phases

It strikes me as weird the fact that I seem to go through cycles, I mean I spent days the other week just writing down how I felt and what was going on in my mind, I must have written over 10, 000 words, and yet as quickly as that phase had begun it stopped. Then I spent ages playing games which got replaced by reading, which in turn has been replaced with cross-stitch. But I have always been like that, I spend ages focused on one thing and ignoring everything else but then suddenly get bored or distracted and I move on to something new.
But in a positive move I went for a walk today ( the third one in six days!) and I went further today than I have in months, but I do wonder if that has something to do with the fact that the sun was shining today and it was quite mild outside. Even so it was/is something positive for me to focus on and even if I can keep on walking every other day then I may just begin to make some progress within my life, all I have to do now is get up early enough for me to phone and see about speaking to a doctor if only because my weight has now fallen to a level that freaks me out. Actually it was the realisation that you can easily feel all my vertebrae that actually made me realise I have to do something about this and maybe the doctor will be able to give me some advice but it would mean me being honest about my eating habits etc, which is a little difficult for me to do, but it needs done.

Another month

Well, another month gone and so far it looks like this year is going to be no different to last, but there is time for things to change!
Just to moan a little my back hurts! I seemed to have pulled a muscle and I can't stand up straight as it hurts! But apart from that little inconvenience nothing much has changed apart from the fact that I have started a new OU course, called start writing family history. Which I'm already about a fortnight ahead in but that is partly because I already know some of the stuff that is covered and because it is a short course the work-load isn't as great as in one of the longer courses. But it passes the day and gives me something to do while I try and work out which course I want to do next.
Anyway I will stop now before I go into one of my rants about my life.