Happy Birthday to me!

So it is my birthday and as per usual I feel sorry for myself! I think it's just the fact that at the moment I feel unable to go out and so I can't really celebrate my birthday to any great degree, but then again I haven't ever really celebrated, so it's not like anything has changed. I suppose it's the same way that I dislike New Year's as it is just another day and I don't see what all the fuss is about,I usually stay up to see in the year but it just feels so weird as I'm just sitting around in my room as normal and watching TV, although the difference is that TV is absolutely atrocious as they expect everyone to be out celebrating.
But the positive side to birthday's is always the presents and this year I regressed slightly and am now the owner of a cute teddy bear who is at the moment nameless, and in a more adult frame of mind I got some books so that will be a good way to pass the next 48 hours! (Well at the moment I don't actually have the books but I will be getting them as soon as everyone else wakes up) Actually knowing me and depending upon the length of the three books I may have finished them all by tomorrow!
And just to make me feel even better I have had a grand total of one hours sleep and I am feeling slightly yucky at the moment, so it is just another normal day within my world, the only difference is that I am now a year older.

Actually it was five books so I think they may last me longer than just till tomorrow.

Scared!

So I just manage to scare myself silly by looking through the information for my next course! I knew that it wouldn't be easy but I didn't realise how complex it would be. I may have gotten in over my head! But maybe I should be positive and wait and see what it actually holds, but to be fair even though it's scary it's also really exciting and at least it will be challenging. The other plus is that since I don't work I can spend all day doing the work which means that I might just have a fighting chance in getting through it and completing it.

But apart from that I've spent most of today in a daze since I only had an hour's sleep last night, and yet I'm still awake now. OK so i did sleep for a couple of hours tonight, but I would've thought that by now I'd be knackered, instead I'm wide awake and bored out of my mind!

Sleep!

I think I have actually managed to completely reset my body clock, as I only went to sleep at 1PM, so now I think it's the middle of the afternoon! I really need to get this sorted out otherwise it will get to the point when I become completely nocturnal and never see daylight. Although that would mean that I wouldn't have to interact with anyone, which actually sounds quite nice.
But it wouldn't be a healthy thing, oh well I suppose I will just have to try and get an early night tonight and hope that will start to knock things back to normal.

You Learn Something Everyday

And I have learnt that for some unknown reason I no longer want to sleep during the night. So i sleep through the day, I think I have reset my body clock to another continent and fixing it is a real hassle as it really involves staying awake through the whole day and then going to sleep at a more normal time. the only problem with this is that when I have been awake for about 24 hours I tend to fall asleep mainly due to the fact that I lie down for a while and before you know it I'm asleep for the next four or five hours, and nothing can wake me up.
But in some respects I may be lucky today, as my ear is full of wax and gets really uncomfortable when I lie down, and as it's a Sunday I can't really do anything about it except resort to the old fashioned method of putting warm olive oil in my ear. Which has to be the weirdest thing ever mainly because you have to heat it in a spoon and it just looks weird. And I know that there are chemical solutions to it, but to be honest they really freak me out and sometimes the old ways are the best. But I will have to wait and see about that. But if my ear is still like this come Monday I will have to get them syringed which is the weirdest thing ever, it just feels so strange and your eyes really hurt when it's being done.
But I think that's enough waffling for today, I really doubt that I will be going for a walk today but who knows maybe I will.

PS. sorry if this doesn't make any sense or if there's a load of spelling mistakes but I have been awake for nearly ten hours straight and I only had three hours sleep yesterday, and at least I'm not spouting the usual nonsense that I tend to say when I'm sleep deprived. Sorry waffling again!